Anime has a lot of ways of messing up characters. Most of the time, it’s through a good sob story that usually takes a couple of episodes, but there are also times when writers feel extra edgy and straight-up tortures the characters into madness.
Kaifuku Jutsushi no Yarinaoshi (Redo of Healer) starts off strong, but rather normal. Keyaru reliving his suffering as a healer gives us a rough idea of how bad being a healer in his world can be. He’s been forced to continuously use his healing powers despite wanting to stop, which ends up with him being a spawn of madness. Here are the reasons his state of mind is not just deserving of psychological intervention, but also ridiculously resilient at the same time.
He Willingly Undergoes Torture For The Second Time
During the first episode of the series, Keyaru, along with the other heroes, fights the Demon Lord. They are on the losing end, and Keyaru is the only uninjured member of the party left. Instead of healing his companions, he rushes to the Demon Lord and kills her. When he gets the artifact that the Demon Lord possesses, he uses it to travel back in time. Now, this is where things begin to get interesting.
We already have a rough idea of what’s going on in his head. He goes back in time, but his body in this period still doesn’t have his original memories. When he regains his memories, his twistedness has also returned. He has remembered everything he has suffered from his previous life. Truthfully, they are indeed heinous, but instead of escaping and living peacefully, he chooses to suffer again. What’s worse is that he’s completely aware of what’s about to happen this time around. He even voluntarily consumes toxic herbs just to gain immunity. Now, that’s what we call twisted guts.
No Amount of Torture Tarnished His Mindset
When he goes back in time, Keyaru’s body unfortunately also regresses. He no longer possesses the various skills he has gained throughout his original life and has to build everything from scratch again. He no longer has immunity to anything, and even his mind has only absorbed his previous memories, meaning it’s not as traumatized as his original one.
Absorbing the full blast of trauma from his previous life is already impressive enough, but when he undergoes the same amount of torture and still doesn' break down, he’s either a masochist or just plain crazy. We’re betting on the latter. We mean, any sane human will definitely go insane after suffering the rebound of his healing magic, being drugged, and being raped by knights every single day. Heck, just thinking about it makes our spines shiver.
His Revenge Is Extremely Wicked
After months of preparation, Keyaru has exacted his revenge. He has meticulously worked every detail and ensures that it will be both extremely brutal and satisfying for him. He uses his skill to change his appearance, kill Flare’s guards, and even frame it on the knight who hit him on his first day in jail. However, that’s just the tip of the iceberg.
When he’s cornered Flare in her own room, he ensures to block all possible noise, then he psychologically harasses Flare. He even goes as far as giving her false hope by tricking her into playing a game with him. He will break her fingers one by one and if she can withhold screaming by the end of it, he’ll free her. Of course, there’s a catch to it. Before he breaks all ten fingers, he will heal her. That’s when she breaks down. Afterward, he strips and rapes her. With his godly healing ability… well, we’ll just leave it to you to imagine.
We can’t say that Keyaru’s revenge is unreasonable. After all, he’s suffered literal months of torture and getting raped. In fact, Flare actually deserves it, which is actually worse. This makes Keyaru a character worthy of compassion, which in turn makes us question our own sanity. On the other side of the coin, this also makes us wonder. What if Keyaru tries to get back in another way? Perhaps something like creating his own army to eradicate the evils in the kingdom. If that’s what he did, maybe he’ll be labeled as a true hero, or a revolutionary at the very least.